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Thursday,
May 10, 2001
Don't mind
me, I'm just moderately depressed
I
had my first headhunter interview today -- the curly lamb who reviewed
my resume was noncommittally supportive, suggested a few refinements
in the layout of my resume and discussed what I wanted in my ideal
job (something within a half hour's drive, $60,000 a year and a
boss who doesn't micromanage me, basically).
I have another interview tomorrow, a real one with a company (unfortunately
I don't have instructions on how to get out there and the headhunter
who was supposed to email this all to me is out of town, so I have
to hope I can reach the account manager before I have to leave tomorrow
morning to get an address and a contact name, arrrgh), and I even
have some decent interview clothes (nice silvery top and long black
shirt with muted silver and blue flowers -- professional without
being fussy).
So
why am I feeling so incredibly dejected? Part of it may have something
to do with reading Tim Powers' Expiration Date -- it's a
good book, but awfully dark, dense and somewhat hard to follow at
points. I've had to space it out with Richard E. Grant's With
Nails -- A Film Diary just to keep some sense of sanity. Part
of it is continuing anxiety over my lack of a severance check, part
of it is a deeply frustrating wish that my beloved ex-boss could
get something put together and hire me for his company (I keep hearing
crumbs of info from assorted people, and I'm getting these paranoid
fantasies that he may want everyone else associated with the project
except me), part of it is dejection at the fact that I may
have to take a job with a commute from Hell because it seems to
be the only thing out there.
I'm
too damned cute and talented for this crap, I really am. Blech.
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